Hi all- this is very personal and I am putting myself out there. I suffer from a mood disorder. My docs think it may be a borderline personality disorder or OCD personality disorder. Anyhow... I suffer from suicidal ideation and when something "traumatic" in my mind happens, I overdose on my meds and am found and taken to the hospital's mental health floor. This happens about twice a year since my mother committed suicide when I was 17. Long story short- I am determined more than ever to be healthy in mind, body, and spirit. Part of this is reducing the stigma of mental issues and the best way to do so is to talk about it. This is me. This is who I am and I need to love myself, even if I am fucked in the head at times. I do have a favor.... I want to return to intense exercise. I like yoga, but for someone like me, the intensity of yoga is not enough. I found a free exercise bike and want to use it everyday, starting today. (I just finished 25 minutes!!!) So the favor is, I need one of those exercise bands that I can synch with my iphone or macbook. (Trust me- my phone and macbook are old. I'm very frugal.) So if anyone is willing to donate one to me since I am on medicaid now and cant work, I would love you forever. Thank you for your time reading this and please pray/send good thoughts/or do what you want to do to send me some good vibes :)
You are loved.
Removing the stigma 1 MB at a time. 12/2014